I will step back and let Him lead the way.

Opinion on Lesson 155 from the workbook for students in “A Course in Miracles”

I awoke this morning from a very good sleep, and I just lay there in bed thinking “the dots need to be connected properly right now, and then I’m going to have a great day!” I was actually thinking those words when I made the transition from that dream world into this one. So I lay there for a while longer, going over the rules for decision that are laid out in the text of “A Course In Miracles”, for the set up of the subconscious mind, to run these thoughts into my conscious mind. I’m going to have a happy day, a peaceful day, and an all around healthy day.   It’s usually best to do this upon awakening for myself, when I’m coming from the borderland of subconscious to consciousness, or my waking state. So after about ten minutes of ruminating, I get up out of bed, and put all the bedding stuff away, (I have a Murphy bed) and then head downstairs to make some coffee. I’m feeling pretty good, and not focusing on any worldly concerns, other than my pressing need to overcome my insane addiction to cigarettes. I am always in the classroom of life, and I am constantly being given lessons to overcome the obstacles to peace, and I just have to be aware or awake enough to notice them.

I set up the coffee to brewing mode, and then I pick up my iPhone and look at the lesson for the day in the “A Course In Miracles” app, and it, on this days lesson says, “I will step back and let Him lead the way.” Well fancy that, what a coincidence! I find myself reading these lines from lesson 155 in the workbook of A.C.I.M and for the purposes of this blog; I have made inserts as denoted by the parentheses, or brackets.

“This is the simple choice we make today. The mad illusion (that I actually smoke, and can’t stop, which is a sick decision, or error, that I’ve made up in my mental construct to be real) will remain awhile in evidence, for those to look upon who chose to come, and have not yet rejoiced to find they were mistaken in their choice. They cannot learn directly from the truth, because they have denied that it is so. And so they need a Teacher Who perceives their madness, but Who still can look beyond illusion to the simple truth in them. I’m in a very good learning situation right now, and my seemingly “impossible mission,” should I decide to accept it, is to avail myself of help from a teacher, the subconscious, inner guide, or power greater than myself (it doesn’t matter what a person calls this power, it is what it is. I prefer the symbolic illusion of Jesus) to overcome this little conscious lie of “i, me, and mine.” With this “in all ways” newfound Power, I can get rid of the nasty addiction to cigarettes! (I can’t smoke in the 10 day silent retreat that’s coming up in a few days, and I don’t want to be detoxing from the weed when I get there as that could seriously affect the outcome of the inward journey into mindfulness)

I’ve been a slave, to a lot of people, places, and things in my time down here on the planet. With the help that I have had, and have been given, I have overcome lots of different addictions. My earliest enslavement, my latest one, and most current addiction is the one of smoking cigarettes. This little stick has had me cornered for a long time, and that little tube encased weed really concerns me, and leaves me feeling imprisoned, and now is a good opportunity, to really get down to it, to the heart of the matter, and butt out. It’s A great time to get the “me” and “I” that “i” think “I am”, out of the way! I am a child of God, and children love to do nutty things, and when the child starts playing with a razor blade it is time to take it away, no matter how shiny and appealing it might appear to the child! And it’s so simple it’s ridiculous, but I’m stupid in this regards, and I can’t perceive my own best interest, so I’m going to smoke a cigarette, and let it run my life! How bizarre is that?

Another word for stupid might be irrational, or better yet, insane, and we all know the definition of that word! It is trying the same experiment over and over again and expecting different results! I am somehow nuts enough to think I can repeatedly put my hand on a hot stove and not feel the pain! Tolerance for pain maybe high but it’s not without limit. And by wishing and trying on my own little power, I am not going to stop this addiction! Every single person on this planet has experienced, or is aware of an addiction currently. If you need a few ideas, here are a few of the most common addictions : worrying, control, money, property, power, prestige, food, booze, drugs, sex, reading, shopping, exercise, TV, hoarding, and our all time North American favorite, the addiction to “more of anything”! Anything, anybody or anyplace, that makes you feel less than, or that takes your focus away from having life is our becoming a slave to the little “me”. If they insist that they are not in some way, or have never had an addiction, they are in a state of what is called in psychological terms, denial: Don’t Even kNow I Am Lying.    To overcome an addiction, or being a slave or prisoner to something or someone, is all about the development of trust in an alternate guide, thing or source, and am I going to step back? Am I going to stay hostage to this false self?  Or am I going to step back and let Him lead the way out of this quagmire? Jesus tells me with certainty in this lesson, “there is another road that leads away from loss of every kind, for sacrifice and deprivation both are quickly left behind. This is the way appointed for you now.”

This quitting smoking mumbo-jumbo is ridiculous to my higher mind. I don’t have to quit anything. I’m just going to stop, and become trusting, that the way will be shown. How much energy will “I” to have to put into this thing? And how much is that going to run me in cost to overcome this? Once again the Master speaks, “There is no cost, but only gain. Illusion can but seem to hold in chains the holy Son of God. It is but from illusions he is saved. As they step back, he finds himself again. (My opinion on this last sentence is that Jesus is telling us that the folks that are following our example of getting out of slavery are going to be a witness for you to what you have accomplished in the “one mind”. This doesn’t mean I am going to proselytise, or run around telling everyone about the evils of smoking! Throughout history we have lots of examples of that kind of nonsense! Prohibition for one, when people actually started drinking more! The latest one that has repeatedly hit the headlines is trying to stop people from taking drugs! Its as crazy as telling someone to stop thinking certain thoughts!  It has always been my observation that people stop something when they decide to; it simply means that when I am healed it is going to help the “One” collective unconscious mind be healed along with mine.)

It is so cool when you do “overcome” a seemingly specific addiction,  and become that much more of  the “Real You” that is not a hostage, nor slave, to the false self that is all just made up in our mind. When I feel that new power, or insight, flow into my being that is not of myself, I can clearly see my way out of jail. I get a “go free” card in this little magical mystery tour that we are all taking part in. I am no longer a victim to a dumb thought! I can almost breathe the air of Heaven again! I have done it before and I can do it again. We all get by with a little help from our friends, and the one friend that is with me all the time, is the one that inhabits this body! Would I wish smoking tobacco products onto a friend? That would be a sick thing to wish for. Why would I want to keep this noose around my own neck? The answer is surely obvious. That would be stupid to hurt them or myself.

So once again I’m left with door number one, stay wired to smoking, or the other door, or choice. That gateway, or choice, would make me to become willing to be taken out of the three ring circus that is in my sick mind, and make the decision to walk out of there to freedom. I could stroll into the symbolic peaceful Meadow with the birds and their peaceful songs. To relax in the very green grass of home! There is no smoke in the air either! I am going to recall this lesson to my minds eye as often as I can today, and everyday. I am determined to see clearly.

The only thing we really have is the power of choice or decision. There really is only one choice! Yahoo! Please have fun, and don’t forget to be kind to yourself, and then you can extend that Self to others.

In my defenselessness my safety lies.

Opinion on Lesson 153 from A Course in Miracles.

The meaning of this lesson comes through loud and clear for me. I am not going to fight anyone or anything, and just let all things be as, he, she, it, them, us, you, me, they are.

If someone says something derogatory to me, I don’t have to defend it. I don’t take it personally simply because I have already gotten myself out of the way.

One of the biggest addictions going now-a-days is paranoia! It is rampant in the world at large because they’re a lot of folks that actually believe that the six PM radio/television news gods have clearly indicated that more conflict is on the way in the form of some event, some people, places or things. So we get ready for the fight, and wear our heavy armor, because the next barrage of “whatever” is just around the corner! Talk about imagination, and yet it is the sense of threat the world encourages that is so much deeper, and so far beyond the frenzy and intensity of which we can conceive, that we literally think ourselves into becoming sick, tired, lonely and afraid.

We become frightened of people, places, and things, and become weary, and so bled out after the days battles, that we barely make it home, usually after performing a job we don’t really enjoy, and then plop into the lounger, and turn on the six o’clock news again for another dose of death on the installment plan.

This lesson states obviously for me that I don’t have to accept the unacceptable, and I don’t have to judge it, decimate, analyze, figure it out, or try to get it my way. My way does not work; and although something or someone in my perception might be foolproof, well, they’re not God proof. It is then that I can go to the Holy Instant, give it to the Holy Spirit, whatever might be problematic for me, and therein lays the answer to the dilemma. I need to do nothing, just change my minds focus and let the Force bring me back to “no conflict”. Jesus says to just turn the other cheek. I keep my eyes on the road and the lights up ahead, instead of turning and holding attention to a distraction which has nothing to do with my goal. When I am driving a vehicle I don’t stare into the rear view mirror for directions either!

It’s as though I am once again preoccupied with past thoughts and outcomes as a quick fix to my trouble. When I am in that defensive state I have forgotten who and what I am. I have forgotten that nothing outside of my mind can hurt me, and I have forgotten that this “view of the world” that I have is coming from my frantic mind. The world, this body, and the mind I experience all of this with, are entirely neutral things, a blank canvas, and I could draw a beautiful picture of whatever I perceive if I were to be at peace, or defenseless. What is truth, our innocence, needs no defense.

To truly let go would be the easiest thing in the world because to let go, or forgive, is simple and easy and requires no effort. It is to lose my grip on trying to fix something or someone. It is all about “relax” and to stop taking everything here so seriously. There really is “nothing” to get upset about! I don’t perceive my own best interests anyways so why not just give it my best shot at whatever it is “I am” trying to accomplish, which is peace, and let the problems that don’t even exist go.

Defenselessness is strength. The choice is always made between Christ’s strength and my own weakness, seen apart from the Christ within. There is only one choice, unless I want to play an insane game!

I am going to be vigilant today for the Light, and I am not going to get caught up in a sick fragment of a dream, which just might come as attack on my “imaginary” personality. I want to play one of those happy games that teach that the game of fear is gone. I am, as often as I can remember, going to look for the light in everyone I meet today. For now, this instant, I will focus on the light within, and make certain that it is there, before I look out.

Be gentle with your self, have fun, and keep up the good work!